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Thursday, November 21, 2013

Exhausting

Life has been exhausting lately.

Explaining myself. Explaining stupid shit that grown adults with half a brain should know. Running around like a lunatic, literally spending about four waking hours per week at my home. Dealing with things in my life that are all kinds of new. Having a sleep disorder. Christmas in Toyland.

It's all very exhausting.

My mind never stops. Work is wearing on me. Life is wearing on me.

I don't even have time to sign up for the gym, let alone actually go there and get on a treadmill.

Yet, in some ways, I really am putting myself first. I know that sounds hard to believe.

Despite the exhaustion, I am happy. For the first time in a really long time, I feel safe and loved.

I get to spend Christmas with my entire family -- all my brothers and their wives and children. I am beyond excited, and fully expect flames to come out of my Toys R Us credit card sometime between now and Dec. 24.

I keep saying that the year coming up will be my year. This time I might actually be serious.

At this rate, I have a feeling that might be even more exhausting.

Stay tuned, folks. I promise that it will be great.